111809.

So i guess if there’s ever a day appropriate to blog and get feelings out, then this would be the day, right? I mean i don’t even actually know WHAT to say or how I’m even feeling for that matter. I am upset obviously, but what is the reason? Because when analyzing my emotions, I can’t rationalize them and that always just tends to make me more mad. I mean, he isn’t any more gone today than he was yesterday, and it’s been a whole year so shouldn’t it just be a bit easier in time? Well, it has gotten easier but still tough. Maybe it’s because we put such importance on dates and today’s date is just a reminder of the incident.  Flashbacks and what-ifs and “how are you’s?. I REALLY don’t like the question “how are you?”. I’ll survive and I’ll keep going and I’ll be okay. To be honest, most of the people that ask me don’t truley CAAAARE, they just want to be my friend…and if they asked me how im doing…then they can justify the fact that were totes bffs, when in reality we’ve probably had about 1 conversation ever.   

Anyways, enough angst from me. I hope everyone enjoys there day…and I AM FINE. 

R.I.P 

Kevin Edward Vest.